i, my name is Staci, and I just joined this club
a few days ago. I didn’t even start reading the
posts, I don’t think, until a couple of days after
joining…I guess I’m still in denial…I can’t believe that
I’m in the place that I’m in… when I stepped on the
scale and it read *380*, I went into a state of
shock…unfortunately, not enough shock to lose my appetite ;P I have
never been thin, though as I look back at pictures of
myself as a teen, I realize how completely brainwashed I
was about how I looked. I looked great back then…I
just didn’t realize it…I hated myself for being
FAT!!! Over the years, the pounds just continued to pack
on…I’m 34 now, and this is the most I’ve ever
weighed…I’m still in a total state of shock. About 3 years
ago, I’d actually starved myself down to 252…I lost
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