Really down
Hi all. I am 20lbs. underweight for this
surgery.<br>Today…after 7 years…I told my boyfriend to leave.<br>Why? I
was thin when we first met…the last 4 years I have
put on around 50-60lbs. and he won’t come near
me…(sorry to be so straightforward)…but my self-esteem is
so low and I have become more and more
reclusive.<br>I am 5′ 2 1/2" and weigh 180lbs.<br><br>A doc
already denied me because I do not weigh enough…even
though I have health problems related to
obesity.<br><br>Anyway…I AM glad for you who have been given this
wonderful chance in life.<br><br>Thank you for
listening.<br><br>brina
October 25th, 2003 at 3:01 am
Dear brina, I do understand what you are
saying.<br>That must have really hurt with your boyfriend,<br>
something like that happened with my special guy,<br>I
hated myself because I felt like I was losing <br>the
most important person in my life. Especially because
he was always wonderful and there for me. When it
came out in the heat of a arguement I felt like that
was the last straw. I can’t make him love me,
especially if I don’t love myself. The last few months have
been tough. My heart breaks for you and you are in my
prayers. Let us know what happens. spacedoutagain
October 25th, 2003 at 8:22 am
Hello. Thank you for a heartfelt message. It
seems the more I gained weight…the more he verbally
expressed love. He also became more loving in being a "best
friend" and stay-at-gone guy. He was quite *confused*
because he *thought* he done nothing wrong. Although for
the last 2 years…we have had ENDLESS discusions
about *it* and the was ALWAYS an excuse.<br>Thank you
for your support.<br><br>brina<br>In his mind.
October 26th, 2003 at 11:06 am
I know you must really feel down right now, but,
don’t give up! You are better off without him if he
can’t accept you the way you are! There are men out
there who are going to love and cherish you just the
way you are! Keep your chin up!