Thin feels good??
Abdullah,
I am not sure if your first name is Abdullah, or Bahia, or if that is your
last name, so forgive me if I don’t address you correctly. I hang on to the
hope that being thin will feel good. I have been heard that line before in
different groups and weight-loss mail groups. However, every time I hear
it, though I guess it must be true, I must admit that I have a little
question mark in my heart every time I hear it , or try to appropriate it
for myself. "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels." It sounds so
assertively correct. However, I am not sure that it is true for me. Or,
perhaps I have never been that thin, to where I cherish and enjoy it. Funny
thing, as I look back at my life, I can remember when being 190 felt very
fat to me. I felt the same guilt that I feel now at 400+ lbs, back when I
was 190. So, now if I were 190 (which could happen only in the most
extreme effort and lots of time), I would be categorized as "thin", at least
comparatively so. But, would I even then be able categorize myself within
my own frame of reference as "thin". Perhaps.
So, back then, "thin" felt "fat", and didn’t feel very good. Will "thin"
feel good at 300, or 250, which would mean I would have lost 200 lbs? I
don’t know. So, when I hold in one hand my favorite Kung Pao chicken,
crispy egg rolls, and in the other the feeling of being thin, it is hard for
me to be enthusiastically endorsing "feeling thin" as feeling much better.
I guess maybe it will. Maybe I will value it more, since I have been fat
for so long. Anyway, for now that idea of it feeling better than anything
I taste will have to remain a matter of faith. Hopefully, one day I will be
able to enthusiastically say that feeling thin is better than being able to
enjoy food.
Danny
December 20th, 2005 at 8:23 am
Danny
As I read your letter, tears came to my eyes..I too feel that way. When I
weighed 150 in highschool..i had no dates cause I was FAT I couldn’t imagine
being as thin as my girlfriends. When I was in my Twenties and I weighed 200lbs
I was not attractive because I was fatter and no one thought so because they
brought it to my attention every chance they got….So I too wonder now at
334lbs..what will I feel like when i weigh 150 again?? I hope I will feel THIN
but Im not counting on it..lol..but I am counting on feeling more comfortable
cause at my current weight..I am not comfortable, walking, tieing my
shoes,chasing after my kids, or leaving my house…So even if being thinner
doesnt taste as good as being fat did..Im ready to be comfortable and to me that
would be worth never tasting another dessert again! I pray for us both..Your
friend ~ Erin
December 20th, 2005 at 5:39 pm
Hi Danny,
Take
My first name is Bahia. I guess when I say that about being thin, its because I
had lost over 100lbs a few years back and I remember what it was like. I
remember not being winded walking up the stairs or wanted to go dancing with
friends because I had confidence in myself. But since I have gained back that
weight and then some, those feelings have left me. I don’t ever want to do
anything or meet new people because I figure I should reject them before they
reject me. I still love food and I know that no matter what anyone says, there
are certain things that will never be better then a hot fudge sundae..lol. I
guess what I try to do though is think of all the things I will be able to do
when I am half my size. I try to think of the comfort I will have being 150lbs
instead of 330. I think about how I would love to not worry about where I have
to go shopping because only certain stores carry my size. I think about being
able to ride a bike with out it hurting my tush. I guess all those things keep
me motivated to do this surgery because they are much better then the food i
taste. I hope that in some way you find your own motivation to figure out what
will work for you. This surgery may not be that answer but no matter what our
problems are now, being overweight only increase our chances of other problems.
If I can prevent that now at my age, my life will be that much longer. Please
keep in touch, its nice to know I am not the only one with the worries.
care. BahiaAbdullah,
I am not sure if your first name is Abdullah, or Bahia, or if that is your
last name, so forgive me if I don’t address you correctly. I hang on to the
hope that being thin will feel good. I have been heard that line before in
different groups and weight-loss mail groups. However, every time I hear
it, though I guess it must be true, I must admit that I have a little
question mark in my heart every time I hear it , or try to appropriate it
for myself. "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels." It sounds so
assertively correct. However, I am not sure that it is true for me. Or,
perhaps I have never been that thin, to where I cherish and enjoy it. Funny
thing, as I look back at my life, I can remember when being 190 felt very
fat to me. I felt the same guilt that I feel now at 400+ lbs, back when I
was 190. So, now if I were 190 (which could happen only in the most
extreme effort and lots of time), I would be categorized as "thin", at least
comparatively so. But, would I even then be able categorize myself within
my own frame of reference as "thin". Perhaps.
So, back then, "thin" felt "fat", and didn’t feel very good. Will "thin"
feel good at 300, or 250, which would mean I would have lost 200 lbs? I
don’t know. So, when I hold in one hand my favorite Kung Pao chicken,
crispy egg rolls, and in the other the feeling of being thin, it is hard for
me to be enthusiastically endorsing "feeling thin" as feeling much better.
I guess maybe it will. Maybe I will value it more, since I have been fat
for so long. Anyway, for now that idea of it feeling better than anything
I taste will have to remain a matter of faith. Hopefully, one day I will be
able to enthusiastically say that feeling thin is better than being able to
enjoy food.
Danny