LOST………
I REALLY don’t know what to do at this point of my life. My stepmom
and I are not getting along at all. For a while, I was working with
her and her business. Now, I’ve been dropped from their little
business because of this fight we’ve had, and I lost her trust and
respect for me.
You see, when I get frustrated or angry, I tend to just walk off
without telling anyone. Of course I do come back, but not for a
while. I know this is one of my bad habbits that I have to break,
because it gets me into a lot of trouble, and it gets everyone
worried as well.
I’m trying to lose weight. I’ve had the Gastric Bypass Weight Loss
Surgery. The highest weight I’ve been was 550 lbs. I went in for
surgery at 397 lbs on June 7 of last year. Now I’m down to 250 lbs.
Which is great!
It’s really difficult for me to keep my motivation up to lose weight
especially when I’m bored or depressed. Even though I know I would
get sick when I overeat, I still do it anyways. And it’s tough,
especially when living with people who don’t have a weight problem,
and can eat all they want.
Back to the fight between my stepmom and I………Because I just
left to go for a walk without telling anyone, she’s actually given me
a punishment. I can no longer use their computer which is the only
computer that has access to the net. She has put huge X’s on pieces
of paper and taped it on their computer. My dad is going to
eventually get my computer connected to the net.
I know disrespecting my stepmom did hurt her. I apologized, but she
didn’t accept my apology. I just thought I would do something worth
my time, while everyone was eating.
Now I’m mad as H@LL!!! I’ve even cried in public and made a total
fool of myself. I’ve had a major panic attack. I almost destroyed
our home when no one was home this morning. I’ve been binging on
food like crazy, and making myself sick, which is not a pleasant
feeling at all. I even come to the point where I tell myself to not
eat at all, but then I eat and hurt myself anyways. I don’t know
what else to do???
I can’t do anything fun that I desire. My stepmom hogs the computer
now as if there was no tomorrow, and doesn’t give a d@mn at all. And
let me add that I’m 23, so I’m an adult. So what’s up with this???
In the past, my stepmom and I were really good friends. She was so
much like a mother to me, I loved her. We’d run into a lot of
problems where we’d save each other’s @ss, or cover each other’s
@ss. To tell you the truth "she" was the one who helped me to get
from 550 down to 397 lbs. Now, we both ran into this fight. And
this hasn’t been the only fight we’ve had.
To tell you the truth, we’re now at the point where we’ve both had it
up to here with each other. Sometimes I actually regret hooking her
and my dad with each other. We don’t even talk to each other
anymore. She’d talk and laugh to everyone else but me. Even though
it hurts when she does that, I try to carry on with my business.
For God Sakes, she’s too strict on me!!! I don’t have much of a
social life, so I don’t get to go out as much as I’d like to. Then
on the other hand, even though she’s a strict person, she does have a
bad temper and takes almost everything to heart, she can be such a
cool loving person. She has helped the family, she’d prepare nice
meals for me and my dad, and she’d help keep the house in order.
And these are one of the reasons why I do overeat. My parents expect
me to be all perfect with my diet too. My stepmom have people
watching me over my back to see if I’m cheating. But right now, I
don’t really care anymore. My stepmom took away one thing that
actually took my mind off overeating on food, now this $%&* has to
happen to me. Don’t get me wrong, I do get out and about to
exercise. I enjoy going for long walks and swim.
I used to be real happy and honored to have her as my stepmom, but
now, I wish she’d leave.
Was all of this really meant to happen??? Is it possible this
problem can be resolved? What should I do? This huge feeling I have
within me feels extremely terrible and painful, and I want to get rid
of it. It’s really killing me emotionally and physically! Any
advice?
~~~Tiff~~~
March 1st, 2006 at 1:36 pm
Tiff….
Call your local crisis line right now…tell them everything you are feeling
..they are there to help you….i know they helped me…..they hooked me up
with a counselor who then got me hooked up with a doctor who treated me for
depression. Contact the doctor and or nursing staff that did your WLS and
talk to them. There is so much help don’t go thru this alone hun.
Ruby
——-Original Message——-
I REALLY don’t know what to do at this point of my life. My stepmom
and I are not getting along at all. For a while, I was working with
her and her business. Now, I’ve been dropped from their little
business because of this fight we’ve had, and I lost her trust and
respect for me.
You see, when I get frustrated or angry, I tend to just walk off
without telling anyone. Of course I do come back, but not for a
while. I know this is one of my bad habbits that I have to break,
because it gets me into a lot of trouble, and it gets everyone
worried as well.
I’m trying to lose weight. I’ve had the Gastric Bypass Weight Loss
Surgery. The highest weight I’ve been was 550 lbs. I went in for
surgery at 397 lbs on June 7 of last year. Now I’m down to 250 lbs.
Which is great!
It’s really difficult for me to keep my motivation up to lose weight
especially when I’m bored or depressed. Even though I know I would
get sick when I overeat, I still do it anyways. And it’s tough,
especially when living with people who don’t have a weight problem,
and can eat all they want.
Back to the fight between my stepmom and I………Because I just
left to go for a walk without telling anyone, she’s actually given me
a punishment. I can no longer use their computer which is the only
computer that has access to the net. She has put huge X’s on pieces
of paper and taped it on their computer. My dad is going to
eventually get my computer connected to the net.
I know disrespecting my stepmom did hurt her. I apologized, but she
didn’t accept my apology. I just thought I would do something worth
my time, while everyone was eating.
Now I’m mad as H@LL!!! I’ve even cried in public and made a total
fool of myself. I’ve had a major panic attack. I almost destroyed
our home when no one was home this morning. I’ve been binging on
food like crazy, and making myself sick, which is not a pleasant
feeling at all. I even come to the point where I tell myself to not
eat at all, but then I eat and hurt myself anyways. I don’t know
what else to do???
I can’t do anything fun that I desire. My stepmom hogs the computer
now as if there was no tomorrow, and doesn’t give a d@mn at all. And
let me add that I’m 23, so I’m an adult. So what’s up with this???
In the past, my stepmom and I were really good friends. She was so
much like a mother to me, I loved her. We’d run into a lot of
problems where we’d save each other’s @ss, or cover each other’s
@ss. To tell you the truth "she" was the one who helped me to get
from 550 down to 397 lbs. Now, we both ran into this fight. And
this hasn’t been the only fight we’ve had.
To tell you the truth, we’re now at the point where we’ve both had it
up to here with each other. Sometimes I actually regret hooking her
and my dad with each other. We don’t even talk to each other
anymore. She’d talk and laugh to everyone else but me. Even though
it hurts when she does that, I try to carry on with my business.
For God Sakes, she’s too strict on me!!! I don’t have much of a
social life, so I don’t get to go out as much as I’d like to. Then
on the other hand, even though she’s a strict person, she does have a
bad temper and takes almost everything to heart, she can be such a
cool loving person. She has helped the family, she’d prepare nice
meals for me and my dad, and she’d help keep the house in order.
And these are one of the reasons why I do overeat. My parents expect
me to be all perfect with my diet too. My stepmom have people
watching me over my back to see if I’m cheating. But right now, I
don’t really care anymore. My stepmom took away one thing that
actually took my mind off overeating on food, now this $%&* has to
happen to me. Don’t get me wrong, I do get out and about to
exercise. I enjoy going for long walks and swim.
I used to be real happy and honored to have her as my stepmom, but
now, I wish she’d leave.
Was all of this really meant to happen??? Is it possible this
problem can be resolved? What should I do? This huge feeling I have
within me feels extremely terrible and painful, and I want to get rid
of it. It’s really killing me emotionally and physically! Any
advice?
~~~Tiff~~~